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4 Years [Jun. 3rd, 2008|08:11 am]
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My father died 4 years ago today. I miss him a lot. Sometimes I feel like I've been holding my breath for those 4 years, afraid of exhailing.

When I dropped out of school again last year my mother, in a (sucessful) attempt to hurt me, told me how dissapointed he would be in me. I like to think that he would have tried to understand, and help. However, if he were alive right now, I know he would be very proud of me, for how I am doing now.

I'm not doing anything special for the day. I've got work, and D&D, but I didn't want to let it pass unremarked on. I give thanks to The Spirit and The Goddess for giving me the father I had, and the years I had with him, and the lessons I have taken from him and managed to retain and continue to learn from.
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[User Picture]From: randysmith
2008-06-03 01:15 pm (UTC)
*nod*

*hugs*
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[User Picture]From: asciikitty
2008-06-03 01:18 pm (UTC)
love - yes, you're right. Today, right now? Your dad would be proud of you.

*hugs*

love you
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[User Picture]From: mabfan
2008-06-03 01:43 pm (UTC)
Your dad would be proud.
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[User Picture]From: lightcastle
2008-06-03 01:48 pm (UTC)
*hugs*
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[User Picture]From: dariusk
2008-06-03 02:01 pm (UTC)
Yes, he'd be very proud of you.
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[User Picture]From: tisana
2008-06-03 02:04 pm (UTC)
I didn't know your dad, so I can't speak for him, but I don't need to have to know that's a horrible (and likely incorrect) thing for someone to say, no matter how frustrated they are.

You sound like you had a pretty close relationship with your dad, and that he'd never be disappointed in you.
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[User Picture]From: octoberland
2008-06-03 04:48 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry sweetie. If there is anything I can do let me know. You know I know how you feel. Hugs.
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[User Picture]From: lucky_otter
2008-06-03 05:10 pm (UTC)
I feel for your pain. Hope you feel better later today.
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[User Picture]From: drwex
2008-06-03 06:04 pm (UTC)
*sits with you a while*
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[User Picture]From: moxie77
2008-06-03 06:42 pm (UTC)
your dad seemed like a really great guy. i remember going out to dinner with the two of you, and i could see how much he cared for you and i have absolutely no doubt that all he ever wanted was for you to be happy and i know that he would be proud of you for how far you have come. i'm really proud of you.
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[User Picture]From: herbie
2008-06-03 10:49 pm (UTC)
*hugs*

Your dad would definitely be proud of you. I don't see much, but I always felt like he was proud of you. Call me sometime if you want to talk.
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