i am going to fuckin' blare this. i am pissed. i am so so so pissed off. i let a fuckin' boy fuckin' get inside of me. of me and he tore me to shreds. without even trying. and he knew how to prevent it. and it's really not her fault. i don't blame her. i blame myself. i really do. for letting someone in. this is why i don't.