"i said a visit. i didn't ask you to make love to me" -- star trek
how do i get myself into these things? it's not bad it's actually very good. it's just... i might be hurting someone i'm starting to consider a real friend in the process. i don't know how i feel about this. i didn't want to say anything about it to anyone in the hopes that i wouldn't do that. but i did, and then... i dunno... i guess i said what i said to whom i said it to 'cause i knew i wanted it to happen. i guess i was afraid. i know i was/am afraid of hurting anyone's feelings.
complicated? yes. i'm not going more in depth until i know more of what is going to happen/is happening. i don't want any bruised emotions where they can be avoided.
on an up note... 90% sure i'm living with annie in watertown. YEA. and i have two weekends left at csw, this one, which is a 3 day, and dance concert. no one outside of csw is going to see me past saturday or so. i need to start packing all of my shit up. scary. and i need to find my checkbook. that would be a good thing.