||[Jun. 20th, 2002|05:44 pm]
|[||song on the wind
|||||celtic cross - hicksville||]|
one of the people who isn't crossed out on my list is going to be a father. we also have always said that we would give it a real shot when we lived closer. i think this eliminated that shot. he will be a good father... i just don't know about at the age of 22. he wants a girl. he's such the type to spoil daddy's little girl. fuck... dave's little girl.... ..... that's such a screwed up concept.
i miss him.....
today i got alot of work done. that made me happy. i hate that fang is unreachable... and i've decided to finally piece this shit with alex back togeather. i think he goes to risd for the summer next week.
i was walking across the quad, getting a soda, and i was like "wait, how the fuck did i get here? what the FUCK am i doing in MA, and when did i become so bloody happy?" i relayed this to martha and she was like "yea, you've grown" and i have. and that makes me happy. i want to stay that way.