||[Sep. 22nd, 2002|02:54 pm]
i need to remember myself that he's not inconsiderate, just completely obliviouse sometimes....
but it still hurts.
also, is it possible to feel too much?
*added on still more*
this is why i miss living with iris and gwen. anytime i got really upset and wanted to curl up and cry, even if it was silly, i could run to their room and do such. i probably could with annie if i really needed to, but she's not home, and i don't feel like asking panda girl if she would hold me while i cry. i miss gwen. maybe i'll call her. no no, i don't want to bring her down. yes it's ok when i'm living with someone to bring them down, it's not when they are 200000000000 miles away.
*last add on, i swear*
i can't live in this apartment anymore. it's not any one person's fault, or even the fault of the other people who live here. the energy is not right, the layout and functionality of the space in general doesn't work. no, i'm not giving my 60 days quite yet, i'm going to look for a place and try and move out around christmass. somewhere T accessable but also where i can still keep my car. (i'm not willing to give it up quite yet). brookline would rock, or even a different place in watertown. if anyone is looking to move around then, or anyone knows someone else who is looking for a place, drop me a line.
ok, i go see james now.