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[Oct. 11th, 2002|01:14 pm]
Nchanter
i feel empty.

statik and fang have their stuff back.

i feel empty.

though i finally know i can do this on my own. life. i don't have a best friend right now, and i have no idea who it's going to become, and i'm not falling apart.

i feel empty. and alone. and i'll cry for a week 'cause that's who i am and sometimes i like being emotional. i like being a hippie.

i can't take back what i did, so now i'm going to live with it. and hopefully learn and not retreat back to what i was before i started all this. if i revert back and i realize it, i'll probably kill myself.

i won't revert back.
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[User Picture]From: sugary828
2002-10-12 01:18 pm (UTC)
Don't beat yourself up too bad, hun. We all have things we wish we didn't do, things that changed everything to the point where you would do anything to turn things back to the way they were when we were "happy". But at the same time, we know that we had no other choice.

You didn't run. Some people don't understand, for people like you or like me the hardest thing to do is to turn and walk away. Sometimes you just reach the point where the only thing you have left to fight with is silence. We just have to learn to do it without looking back...
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[User Picture]From: nchanter
2002-10-12 08:55 pm (UTC)

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james just said "sometimes the hardest thing to do is just walk away from the situation" your right. that's always been the hardest thing for me to do. look at mine and toby's relatuionship? how long did i hold onto it after it was dead. look at me and vic. i finally cut him out last month, after 4 fucking years. thank you thank you thank you for saying that....
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From: urban_cowboyz
2002-10-15 10:25 am (UTC)

I don't know the whole situation or anything but you did what you felt you had to do so don't beat yourself up over it. I'm sorry things aren't going well for you right now. But in time things will start looking up again, don't worry. You will meet new people and friends and you will have a best friend again. You are a really great kind person and thats a rarity these days. I'm always here if you need to talk. feel better!
Much Love,
Cricket
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