had a really really good dance rehersal today. they know about a minute of it, roughly, yes, but i'm planting a seed and people didn't seem to be in agony. and everyone came! including flaky ashley (hippie dyke ahsley not goth ashley). though it was 4:25 before everyone was there togeather, but hey, everyone came! and we had a really productive hour. i mean, they learned a minute. and we learned that the counts are relaly really fucke up. not that it should be that surprising for anyone who knows tool. and i'm not getting sick of this song yet, though i'm sure i'll approach it come tech week. which it looks like i might make it to. i'm doing (enough) of my HW, i'm going to class, and the dancing gives me energy, so i'm not so fuckin' slothenly. i'm doing good. except that i was ten minutes late for curfue tonight 'cause i think i zigged when i should have zagged in sommerville. i always get lost in sommerville. curse you kaos, for living there. ok, i take that back. it's MUCH better than north providence.
umm... dont' feell ike writing more. need to burn a cd for my gwen
and then read that fuckin' book
i just don't feel like dealing with anyone right now. is that really such a bad thing? ok, not noone, but most people. and if you are wondering if you are one of those people i'm willing to deal with and you haven't seen me online in a few days, i either don't want to deal with you, or you haven't been important enough lately to contact. no, these are not the same thing. no, i'm not mad at you, except for you, but it's not your fault you exist, but i'm not mad at you, you didn't do anything wrong, i just don't feel like dealing. and if i feel like dealing with you, or your rating is high enough in my coolbook you will be notified. and if you think about calling just ask if i'm "ok" don't. it's not worth the time. there is no guarantee i'll answer. if you want to show that you "love me" and want personal re-assurance that i'm "ok" you can reply to this post, or e-mail me with a "personal message" or if you hunt me down i will give you points for persistance, though if you hunt me down at the wrong time you could loose points for pissing me off. your call.
no, i'm not really mad at anything. i'm just, not pretending right now. you know it's not easy to act like you care when you dont' 24/7.
no, i'm not saying that i don't care about any of you or about anything, i just don't care as much about all the stuff that you think i do. no i'm not going to tell you what i really do care about and what i don't. it changes from minute to minute. yes we are sill friends, i just need a sabatical from my friends, so i'm taking one. don't take it personally. it's not you, it's me.
my hard drive went from having 600megs free to 64. and my clean disk doesn't work. i have about 100megs of temporary internet files that i have to go and try and manually clean off. but most of those did not occur in the last 24 hours and...ummm... WHAT THE FUCK??