October 27th, 2004


The Ominous College Essay

At about 1:30 i gave up working on the essay for the college application that still wasn't good enough, that i still haven't turned in, that i've asked for help on then shrugged off. I think i shrugged off that help, not because I didn't want it, i am appreciative of all the offers i have gotten, but i shrugged it off because i didn't like what it was saying. At 1:40 or so i crawled into bed with darxus. at 2am i figured out what i needed to do with this essay, and was like "oh, i should jot that down, and go to sleep." Yea. Right. 1- there would have to be paper and pen at Darxus's place. 2- Yea, i needed to go fix that NOW. And the essay was on my harddrive, on my laptop, back at my place.

It's a wonder what a half-hours worth of working on something can do. But god damn it, i need to learn how to write NOT at 2 or 3 am. otherwise, darxus will fucking kill me before i make it through college. but i'm working on stuff to change my habits such that i can go to school and not have him kill me at the same time. go me.

oh, and below is the essay. give me all the feedback you want. you can e-mail me if you like, and if you want a copy of it e-mailed to you, that works too. But i need the feedback ASAP. i was supposed to turn this in weeks ago (according to my own deadline, the application deadline is not until december.)

Now i just need to mail off the stuff to other people (like rec's and transcript requests) so they can get it in. I'm so bad about that stuff. I will do it tomorrow!!!!!

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(oh, and don't you all be so surprised that the essay is all spelled correctly and has proper grammer and punctuation (though PLEASE correct me if you noticed something was not actually right) 'cause i DID write it in MS Word, and this IS an essay that is, you know, kinda graded, and stuff.)
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Museings of a confessed mall goth.

Ok, i'm not really a mall goth, i mean i don't spend all my time at the mall. But i really do love Hot Topic sometimes (especially when they decide NOT to charge $40 for a shirt. their prices seem more reasonable since hootanany's (sp?) has been around.) I went out to the Natic Mall today after therapy (my shrink is in downtown Framingham, so it's in that part of metro west) to see if they still had my wings, in black, at Hot Topic, which is where i got them a year ago with James. Not only did they have them in black, they no longer had them, like that, in purple. they now had black sheer stuff with purple glitter spiderweb designs. I ended up getting them, plus another pair of wings, plus WAY too many clothes, though at somewhat reasonable prices (the best dress EVER for $34) while there. However, because i was in a gothy store in a mall, in suburbia, and it beeing the week before halloween, there were a bunch of 14 year old normals in the store. at one point i was looking at their pillar-of-wings and this little blond chick wearing jeans and a light-pink t-shirt, turned to ask me a question about the price of something. "um, i don't work here..." and she just looked at me and was like "oh" (you mean, people dress like that for REAL??? I'm wearing my red-trimmed bondage pants, black boots, and my Gama-Go red with black sleeved shirt. for real people, not all that freaky.) When i needed the help of a (cute) staffer to get some stuff off of the top hooks on the wall, i was like "ok, i just got to ask, working here this time of year with all the little blond 14 years olds comeing in and out asking stupid questions and being normal must suck right?" and she was like "yea, actually."

anyways, it was a very productive trip. so productive, in fact, that i am not allowed to by myself anything else i don't actually NEED until after christmass (this doesn't count any presants i might need to purchase. but nothing else for myself).

but yea, it was just, amuseing. and it brings me back to how much most of the goths and punks i know joke about the silly mall goths who spend all their time at hot topic, but how hot topic really has some cool shit somtimes. like this dress i got, i'm already in love with it. it just fits perfectly, does a good job with the cleavage, and is just pritty. and simple. and, you know, they sell wings that hold up fairly well, and aren't dinky or anything. :-)

*bounce bounce bounce wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee*

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