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[Jan. 29th, 2003|08:50 am]
Nchanter
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thanks for all the concern last night, esp to marcus and coureton, who talked to me on the phone and got to listen my innane ramblings. i'm ok. i kinda... lost it... last night. but things are good. no, this relationship is NOT doomed. i realized a few things about it, about myself.

when james is on the trail i plan on being single. if this contradicts anything i have said or implied to anyone else, i am sorry. i haven't been single in over 4 years now... and i'm not going to break up with james just to be single. not when i have such a good thing going. and that thought of that good thing will help me through the single ness, i'm sure.

and on another note i think i'll dye my hair before i go to class. 'scuse me.

*added* at 11:50

hair is purple-r again. YEA! just how purple? we will have to wait and see, 'cause it's still drying. i didn't do any of the bleaching or the blue streaks that i wanted to. the shade of faded purple was just starting to piss me off too much, and dying my hair always makes me feel better. yea!

i was really out of control last night. i really would have done something rash had it not been for coureton. i am forever endebted to him, as always. i really almost fucked everything up last night.... and i really didn't realize how much so until this morning. even with not doing something rash, i hurt my first soul mate (yes, first, well, first i descovered this time around, he is certaintly not my first in the overall timeline of things.) and while he did not deserve it, i'm not going to cry over it. it would have been much much worse if i had hurt my beloved. yes, my beloved, that's how i think about him. no, not a soul mate. all my soul-mates are toxic and do too many drugs. beloved's are much better....
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[User Picture]From: sugary828
2003-01-30 09:56 am (UTC)
Sorry this is kinda random.... I want to dye my hair and make it redder, but like actually red (not fire engine red) not a reddish brown which is how it usually turns out... Do you have an suggestions, or are you around to help me with that? Even if not we should hang out some time so I can fill you in on all the latest gossip :-P Since you are, after all, the first and only person from home who knows what's going on.... yes, no one else has figured it out STILL.
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[User Picture]From: nchanter
2003-01-30 10:18 am (UTC)

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does no one read your away messages? lol. well, unfortunately, to get your hair redder, without paying someone to do it, you would probably have to lighten it first. now it wouldn't have to be bleached out all the way, and i COULD help you do it, and if you want it done pre-mid feb, i could do it saturday, but after saturday i'm booked throught the 15th. (yes, psychoness) so yea. i'm good pritty much most of saturday.
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