|no, no one caused this post. i'm so glad your that full of yourself.
||[Feb. 5th, 2003|05:46 pm]
emotions keep on flip flopping. maybe i shoudln't have stayed in boston after HS. there is something nice about the idea of a clean start... not that i could transfer anywhere with my current GPA... but if things continue going sour maybe i could for JR and SR year. not that i have any idea of where, school or area-of-country, i would transfer to. it just might be a good idea to get a clean start. yea. like that's ever going to happen. i am too tied to my past.
that and i could get rid of all the shit that brings me down about this place. i still love the city and the area. and i still have people here that make me happy. the first thing to eliminate the bs from my life would be to get rid of this god damned distraction. ah yes, livejournal, how i love thy toxicity.
i probably wouldn't be writing all of this if james hadn't put my book NOT where i keep it on my nightstand and i had rembered it this morning. i would be on the couches in brimmer reading.
something i decided.... again... I like theatre. i like the fact that my life gets so crazy sometimes that i have to tell people to call me in a week, i only have time to deal with the really important people. right now, that means james. no, not just 'cause i get laid, but 'cause he needs me right now. and i like that i can be, have been, there for someone, when they have really needed me, not when they are full of petty bullshit. and no, the petty bullshit line isn't directed at anyone, so if you take offense at it, you should probably evaluate what in your life makes you think that you are causing petty bullshit.
i think i'm going to have to re-evaluate who my friends are. or rather, who i'm willing to spend time around. those who act like middle schoolers will get cut. those who don't, will not. it's that simple.
oh, and siren, if you are reading this, forget it. your right. we have nothing to talk about. sorry to have ruined your night at manray with gothy petty bullshit. i just hope your not leading jorge around on a string again just so you can go out clubbing, at a place seething with gothy petty bullshit.