i suck. today is tuesday. i was supposed to be at csw with martha at 8:30. i FORGOT that today was going to be tuesday. fuck fuck fuck. i hate letting her down. fuck fuck fuck. fuck. correction. i DON'T let martha down. like ever. fuck fuck fuck. THAT was why i needed to go to bed before 3 last night. her on the phone this morning didn't even wake me up. now i have to call her. FUCK.