||[Jul. 14th, 2003|09:28 am]
|[||song on the wind
|||||jerry, in the dance lab, playing for the modern class||]|
i give everyone a second chance. i can't think of anyone who i haven't given a second chance to. this includes people like abusive ex-boyfriends and the would-be rapist. this is how i almost got raped twice, by the same person. so maybe i'm too trusting, to forgiving, have an over-sized sense of loyalty. if i'm willing to let someone in i like to think... i like to think i'm a good judge of character. it's gotten better with time.
there are some people i've given more than their second chance (i consider the pre-screwing up period as their first chance), but everyone gets atleast one. i think that's why i got so frustraited with a certain un-named scribbler and a certain un-named ball of static (CLING!) when i didn't get a second chance. i was still on my first one. so some people subscribe to the "fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me" theory. i subscribe to the "your allowed ONE fuck up without (many) consequences theory" but i am known to give more than one chance, and often, more chances than a person deserves. the longer i've known you, the more chances you get. probably.
i'm seeing someone today, who i am essentially giving another chance. as i justified it to gwen (other than me not needing to justify it at all) "they only had one fuck up, technically, though it was a big one, not a huge one, but a big one, that kept on compounding due more to other people's manipulation than their own fault"
this person has grown since then, and i'm happy for them. that's why i decided, on an off chance, to see if this was possible, and it looks like we can go back to being friends, as they were an AWESOME friend, and i've missed them alot.
yes i'm being gender ambiguouse, deal with it. if all goes well y'all will beable to figure it out soon enough. and no, it's not a hooking up friend, just someone i was close with at somepoint. They were also someone who the pillow-designs i was doing/will do again were originally made for. but they will probably benefit from my added experience in that field, and furthered addiction to pritty fabrics :-)
hopefully i'll have a happy post about that this evening :-)
oh, and speaking of happy posts, did i mention james called yesterday??? :-)