||[Sep. 14th, 2003|12:12 pm]
i may just be getting my wish, just sooner than i expected, sooner than i thought was going to happen, soon enough that i am not ready for my wish to be granted. soon enough that it's hurting someone else, by accident. i wish that someone else was actually telling me what was going on with them, instead of having to hear some of it third hand. i had a feeling some of that might be going on, but i would have liked to have heard it myself.
one of the things one has to learn about poly is not being able to make all your sweety's happy all the time. it's just not always possible. and it's one thing to know it, it's another to accept it.
gah, i wish i knew when brian was getting back from the wedding this weekend. i'll try calling him tonight, i guess.