||[Oct. 19th, 2003|09:59 am]
i, and james, and possibly people over for katies party last night, though i never got opinions, think i might be legitimately sick, and not just feeling overwhelmed-socialized and really run down. will NOT cancle on brian today, though when i call him at noon or one i'm going to be like "i REALLY should lay low, so lets do something low key." or even just ask him to come over and watch movies, 'cause i really am on overload from being quite social even if i am sick. big groups scare me, though the one here last night was pritty chill, though it was still a big group and a few of the people here i didn't know. mink and i ended up hibernating for a while. we were hopeing that people would assume that we were having really kinky sex (which we were, i swear. yea. that's what we were doing. "napping") and james was being sweet and brought me pepermint tea and her PIE. they approved of eachother (mink and james) so that made me happy. that made me REALLY happy. if they hadn't... augh... no... that would have sucked.
in addition, i might actually have someone i like as roommate potential. james's friend john showed up for katie's party last night, LOVED the apartment, and thinks other issues that he thought he might not be ok with (me being poly and james being a very good friend of his, so more, seeing me with other guys) might not be nearly so much a problem. i would TOTALY love to live with john, if he is ok with stuff. if he's not, than i just can't. i'm not going to compromise/hide who i am. lets all hope...