optimistic
lbitw lives. Roughly) I've spent much of the past week and a half out here. That wasn't supposed to actually be the case, some stuff came up, but it's what happened. And it's been eye-opening, in a "This isn't always gonna be perfect" sort of way. That's been good. I still want to move out here.I'm cranky today. I've been feeling kinda sick. That sucks. I've been having other re-occurring health problems of the female-bits variety. That sucks too. And yet, I'd still say this was a good weekend. Yesterday I cooked. A meal. I was cooking for 6, so of course I made enough food to feed 12. Stuffed grapeleaves and baked chicken (lemon juice, olive oil, parsley, garlic, salt and pepper. immensely good) rice pilaf, a Middle Eastern vegetable salad. It was definitely the most amazing meal I have ever cooked. I mean, I worked on it for half the day (I rolled the entire pot of grapleaves by myself. My back was screaming by the end of the day.) but I was thoroughly impressed with myself.
So yea, I'm most-likely moving out here in the fall. I love it here and I love the people out here that I now think of as Family. I'm looking into going back to school, but that's up in the air right now. I do think that it will be a positive change for me... I've not been able to find "happy" for more than fleeting moments in about four years. Being with these people makes me happy. Being out of the franticness of the city make me calmer. So what the hell, I'll give it a shot. Logistics still need to be worked out, and I'm working on those, but the last 2 weeks have been amazing in a really mundane sort of way.
So there. I'm announcing it.
-N
