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my day.... and what a day [Jan. 9th, 2002|10:30 pm]
[emotional state |infuriatedinfuriated]
[song on the wind |tool - opeit]

dance concert stuffs staredt up today. that is goods. however i didn't leave the lab until 5, instead of 4, which is when i told james i would. informed him of my tardyness, told would explain. get to ailwife after talking on the phone with vic the whole way. he's having girl problems. he calls me. go figures. so i get to ailwife and who do i see going through the turn-thingy but alan. i'm on my way to see james. he knows this, ok. so i snag him and sit next to him on the T and steal all his fries (burger king, eh) and at porter henri and mindy, james's roommate and honorary roommate get on with groceries. i introduce alan as my friend in a moment of panic. henri asks where i'm headed. "your room" i kiss alan goodbye as we get off the train. so james is at the station to meet me and there is just this look on his face when henri, mindy, and i are walking up the ramp togeather all carrying groceries. he laughs. we go back to the room. have a really really good talk about a less than plesant subject, eat indian food that mindy cooked. it was nice.

i get back here (being dorm) i check my friends page (yes before i check my e-mail, shush!) and i read this:

hold myself down with a knife to my throat
standing alone as the drugs go to work

emotions: on.......*click*off



considering i am the only person on his friends list, or that he lists as a friend, as his lj exists for my befit. i am done. done done done done done. if he is going to do this, i can shut out the past three years of my life too. cold hearted bitch i can be, oh wait and see oh wait and see.

to quote the smashing pumpkins, love is suicide....

From: ex_brainles
2002-01-09 07:35 pm (UTC)
or if you please... the lyrics to the theme song from M.A.S.H.

suicide is painless
it brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it
if I please....
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[User Picture]From: nchanter
2002-01-09 07:38 pm (UTC)


oh i'm not saying i'm going to. i'm more homicidal right now....
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From: ex_brainles
2002-01-09 08:06 pm (UTC)
I know... I was just running with the theme... :)
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From: sinnner
2002-01-10 02:00 am (UTC)


Most people will not tell you if they are going to kill themselves, most just do it, and leave a note. If they start telling you it's a cry for attention. If they do it repeadly they have fucking issues beyound your help.
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[User Picture]From: nchanter
2002-01-10 02:02 am (UTC)

Re: Satatics

he has fuckin' issues beyound my help. which is why if he had actually called me back tonight, like he said he would, i would have handed my phone to my secretary "hello kris's phone, this is fang" ::grin::
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