||[Jan. 23rd, 2002|12:31 pm]
|[||song on the wind
|||||juno reactor - pistolero||]|
i just don't feel like dealing with anyone right now. is that really such a bad thing? ok, not noone, but most people. and if you are wondering if you are one of those people i'm willing to deal with and you haven't seen me online in a few days, i either don't want to deal with you, or you haven't been important enough lately to contact. no, these are not the same thing. no, i'm not mad at you, except for you, but it's not your fault you exist, but i'm not mad at you, you didn't do anything wrong, i just don't feel like dealing. and if i feel like dealing with you, or your rating is high enough in my coolbook you will be notified. and if you think about calling just ask if i'm "ok" don't. it's not worth the time. there is no guarantee i'll answer. if you want to show that you "love me" and want personal re-assurance that i'm "ok" you can reply to this post, or e-mail me with a "personal message" or if you hunt me down i will give you points for persistance, though if you hunt me down at the wrong time you could loose points for pissing me off. your call.
no, i'm not really mad at anything. i'm just, not pretending right now. you know it's not easy to act like you care when you dont' 24/7.
no, i'm not saying that i don't care about any of you or about anything, i just don't care as much about all the stuff that you think i do. no i'm not going to tell you what i really do care about and what i don't. it changes from minute to minute. yes we are sill friends, i just need a sabatical from my friends, so i'm taking one. don't take it personally. it's not you, it's me.